Before the pork buns steamed in the pot, moisture in their white folds, before the dried tofu was trimmed into thin strips, my father raked long grain rice out of the mesh bag,

stirred it on the stove to get the texture right. He filled a bowl with porridge, sprinkled dried pork shreds and salted peanuts into a heap on top. Each morning my father told me to bring the bowl upstairs.

My grandmother listened for my feet grazing the carpet. She reclined on her bed with the blue hydrangea pattern I wanted. I handed her the tray, glanced at the expanding

brown thatch that coated her face. She said something in Taiwanese; I ignored her. My father said porridge, peanuts, pork, were her favorite. He never added cashews or cucumbers. Day after

day, he rubbed the wooden Buddha’s head, told me not to wear white in my hair, not to leave chopsticks vertical in a bowl of rice; I did it anyway. I counted the days, one by one, like the raisins I stole from the box on her bedside table.