A new name remembering thirteen dead was on the box. One of seven sets of twins toNathaniel Mackey
A new name remembering thirteen dead was on the box. One of seven sets of twins to survive. Twins Seven Seven, ”Iré”… It was day after day of the dead again. We lifted shot glasses filled with salmon fat. ”No life long enough,” we winced. We’d been eating tacos and falafels filled with confetti, shredded newspapers. Head- lines blackened our teeth… It was day after day of the dead again. Repetition was what we had and we worked it, Quag’s toll rose each day. There was the it, then there was the it of it, less itself than a hum even we could see, Quag Nub’s Pyrrhic limb… Some- one’s face was in a window squinting, scrunched up, looked out intimating what soul was. A bubble in my groin made me grimace, I looked up, long since in- sistent we were it, it was us, Osiris’s chthonic run… Day after day of the dead again. Day after day went by without emolument. Nub’s low growl and regret… It wasn’t run what we did, hesitation was what we had, no step not taken back. Trepidation was what we had. No way could we breathe deep enough, brace against what would come… If we ran it ran with us. No way could we be alive enough. Bumped earth escaped us, lost in low scrub, the it of it given up, let go… There would be bits of it ever after, its it scattered. This would be known as time. So we read in what would be our book should there be a book, address not arrived as yet, book in abeyance, book meant beginning to be gone… It wasn’t my face we saw in the window albeit tunes from my youth were in the book. “Little Sunflower,” “Equinox,” “Doxy,” on and on, played by a beginners band. It was a sad glad children’s orchestra, an all-souls band we were told… Mock-awkward Monk it might’ve been, unintended, so tenuous it made us weep… We sipped salmon fat, beginners against our will. Vicarious consort, vicarious kin… Washed ashore no one could say where, mystic habitat, Quag’s necropolitan outskirts, Quaph… Day after day went by, mock promise. Erstwhile body, yet-to-be book, box yet to be within earshot… More ghost of what it was than an echo, long since not even a shell. So we said or said we saw, were told we saw… Whatsaid savvy, apocryphal witness. Long since no longer its it, more say than saw… Said we saw an edge in front of us… The way the ground fell away spoke loudly. A pregnant star, dilated light… It was the end of something risen, lifted up only to subside, ythm’s hushed insistence it seemed… So it was in what was always aftermath, day after day of the dead again, again no longer the it of it it was… Book said to be wet with lipsmear, seal against what was to come. Love’s chronic lovers Nubstruck… Quag’s quaint romance blown up… An ailing voice would come out of it, box as much as book, sing its heart out we’d say, begin with humming, not the hum from before, Nub’s alibi, summon something said out of hearing, mum amen
Nathaniel MackeyNathaniel Mackey teaches at Duke University and is the editor of Hambone. His most recent book of poems is Splay Anthem (New Directions).