I’m shoving blueberriesinto my bloodstreamsmoking strawberriesout of a broken lightbulbsnorting raspberriesup my noseI’m smoking blackberriesrolled with tobaccoin a nightmare rotationof every personwho has broken my heartI am flicking the outside of the bagof lingonberrieswith my fingertipswetting for a taste of cranwaiting around all dayfor my plug to come throughwith ounces of boysengrams of huckle and black currantdon’t lecture me about pesticidesor how to handle delicaciestell me instead how to satiatehow to find my way back