“The past is a future we return to” —Fargo Tbakhi

After the Nakba, there was the Nakba of Before: Nakba of earth less-split, Nakba of root-less hollow, Nakba of take and take -back. Nakba where 1948 was less a time than a state

of []. And after, there was the Nakba of Naksa, the Nakba of Protective Edge and inescapable decade, the Nakba of tear

gas, of Nabi Saleh, of Sheikh Jarrah. And after the Nakba

of dismembered starlight, of atom’s split and DNA frag -ment, of bio-protocol as open-air prison, there was the Nakba of recursion of Gaza of Nakba of recursion of Gaza. And two

carcinogenic oceans later, there was the Nakba of the beforeless I. Of the entangled I. In that country, Nakba was the only mother we returned to. And when the Nakba of metaphor. And when

the Nakba of fatherless breath. And when the slurred speech Nakba, when the backfired dendrite Nakba. And when the Nakba of sellout’s handshake birthed the Nakba of American

Letters birthed failure of ع and stopped glottal. And when body was Nakba of taa marbuuTa. Tonguetied,

from the Nakba of discourse and settler’s chant, I emerged, a smiling creature, to nod through this hysteria of a light

-shorn language.And when the Nakba of heaven’s abandonment. And when the Nakba of Eden’s singe. When, funeralless, the Nakba of Before, of BeforeBefore, happened inside of me, I didn’t know

whose field to burn, whose hillside to abandon, whose wings to re-syntax after—yes, we flew towards after and were given, instead, an impossible

beyond: Nakba of horizon’s mourning. Nakba of unreachable of – of body النهر, of body البحر – body this one-sided light of a dying sun.