Gay Bingo at a Pasadena Animal Shelter Gay Bingo at a Pasadena Animal Shelter
My bingo cards are empty, because I’m not paying attention. I can’t hear the numbers, because something inward is being given substance. Then my mother and father appear in the bin…
Oct 26, 2017 / Books & the Arts / Henri Cole
Weeping Cherry Weeping Cherry
On a plateau, with little volcanic mountains, a muddy river, dangerous when the snow melts, a fertile valley, cattle breeders, and a music academy, a tall, handsome, agile people,…
Mar 16, 2017 / Books & the Arts / Henri Cole
Epivir, d4T, Crixivan Epivir, d4T, Crixivan
The new disease came, but not without warning. The drugs were a toxic combo that kept the sick going another year. I loved how you talked in your sleep about free will. Your clothe…
Feb 16, 2017 / Books & the Arts / Henri Cole
Three Poems Three Poems
These three poems from Blackbird and Wolf are published with permission of Farrar, Straus and Giroux. Homosexuality First I saw the round bill, like a bud; then the sooty crested head, with avernal eyes flickering, distressed, then the peculiar long neck wrapping and unwrapping itself, like pity or love, when I removed the stovepipe cover of the bedroom chimney to free what was there and a duck crashed into the room (I am here in this fallen state), hitting her face, bending her throat back (my love, my inborn turbid wanting, at large all night), backing away, gnawing at her own wing linings (the poison of my life, the beast, the wolf), leaping out the window, which I held open (now clear, sane, serene), before climbing back naked into bed with you. Poppies Waking from comalike sleep, I saw the poppies, with their limp necks and unregimented beauty. Pause, I thought, say something true: It was night, I wanted to kiss your lips, which remained supple, but all the water in them had been replaced with embalming compound. So I was angry. I loved the poppies, with their wide-open faces, how they carried themselves, beckoning to me instead of pushing away. The way in and the way out are the same, essentially: emotions disrupting thought, proximity to God, the pain of separation. I loved the poppies, with their effortless existence, like grief and fate, but tempered and formalized. Your hair was black and curly; I combed it. Beach Walk I found a baby shark on the beach. Seagulls had eaten his eyes. His throat was bleeding. Lying on shell and sand, he looked smaller than he was. The ocean had scraped his insides clean. When I poked his stomach, darkness rose up in him, like black water. Later, I saw a boy, aroused and elated, beckoning from a dune. Like me, he was alone. Something tumbled between us-- not quite emotion. I could see the pink interior flesh of his eyes. "I got lost. Where am I?" he asked, like a debt owed to death. I was pressing my face to its spear-hafts. We fall, we fell, we are falling. Nothing mitigates it. The dark embryo bares its teeth and we move on.
Feb 12, 2009 / Books & the Arts / Henri Cole